01/31/2010

"Many times we desire to change the people in our life that don't meet our expectations. We overestimate our ability to change others because we fear the unknown. When we understand our ability to create the exact life we desire, we realize we can create new relationships with people that will meet our expectations . . . not because we changed them but because that is who they already are."

- Nick Bogatin

This statement really made me think. I am guilty of this.

Balloons

Balloons filled with dreams
Floating around with no bag of tricks
And through their multitude
They sigh for altitude
Cause there the sky is clearer,
Cause there their name is bigger.

Balloons with little dreams
Balloons with little hearts
Balloons with nothing inside
Wanting no more than important names.

But fame rhymes with fail
The higher you float the colder it gets
Stratosphere of success,
The pressure's immense
Maybe that's what you think
The moment you break.

Balloons with little dreams
Balloons with little lives
Balloons with nothing to say
Wanting no more than important names.

I found this on deviantart.com. Please check out this artist he has some neat stuff! xn3ctz.deviantart.com The picture that goes with them poem is awesome.

Playing GM

Sarah, my general manager, is out of town all week snowboarding in Steamboat Springs. Hooker. I have been doing all of the errand running for the hotel this week which means buying bread for the breakfast bar. Have you ever went into a grocery store and filled an entire cart of bread? You get a lot of weird looks. One guy was brave enough to come up to me and ask what I would need all that bread for. I told him I have 16 childern and we only eat sandwiches. He looked at me like I was crazy and decided to tell him the truth. If you are ever board I completely suggest going to a store and filling a cart with bread and walking around like that for a bit. It's a riot!!

i can't stand . . .

people with double standards. if you preach it, live it, and if you don't believe stop shoving it down my throat!

01/21/2010

Feels like time for typing something . . .

Work is going fine. I have three days off this week!!! That almost never happens this time of year. People are traveling more and Pocatello is having events again. This week, Ag Expo, commonly known as Potato Conference. These people like to stay up late and party! Tuesday night I saw so many people bringing in sacks of liquor. They are nuts. Sarah, my GM, is going out of town this next week so I get to be the head of house and work an insane ammount of hours. I hired a guy who quit within a week. I am hoping to get someone hired this next week and start training. I have to prepare for employee evaluations again. Blah, not my favortie thing to do.

I am counting the days to tax return day. My company never sends our returns until the very last day possible. They are lame. With my tax return this year I am planning on moving into a new apartment, a smaller apartment. I seriously can't wait. It is going to be the highlight of the year...so far at least.

I love my wii fit board. Kendra, Rich, Beth, and I had a blast messing around with it last night. Beth and Rich have never used one before, so it was quite the treat for them! Thanks to mom and dad for the great present!!!

Poem

I can see we are moving forward
But we still have a long way to go
The trick is keep your eyes on the road
Remember where you been, but never look to the sides

Still a long way to go
Where war meets peace
Where hate meets love
Where you meet me

thanks gilad on deviantart.com

01/10/10

I have finally gotten over my sickness...for the most part. My throat is still a little sore and my nose still slightly congested, but I am tons better than I was a week ago! I broke down and went to the doctor on Wednesday and all he did was tell me I had a virus and to take over the counter medications. Really?!? Because I wasn't doing that before...idiot.

I have been going through applications at work, and boy do I have a million! I am only looking for a very part-time person and it likely won't be a permanent position. People are in such desparate need of jobs right now.

Mike and I are puppy sitting for my uncle and aunt and I got very little sleep last night. I am going to have a long night at work tonight!!

i love this . . .

Resolutions?

Ok so...new year's resolutions...I have never been good at keeping them so this year I really want to make my best effort at doing so.

• Reconnect with myself - I feel I have lost myself the past few years so I want to be a bit more selfish(in a good way)
• Drink more water - I am positive I don't drink enough
• Write - Something I have always wanted to do and I think it is about time I start; so I am sure I am going to start posting more random blogs; be prepared
• Read more
• Loosen up - someone told me recently that I am wound so tight I would make babies cry, so my goal is to loosen up and stop caring what the world thinks/wants/expects of me. I am ME and that is it!!
• Be happy happy happy

Lets see how this goes for me!!

2009

I promised a 2009 review and I have been slacking because I have been so sick the past week. Sore throats and congestion coupled with work hasn't been very great! So here we go a month-by-month recap(as close as I can at least):



January brought a lot hectic days at work. I started off the first week of the year working fifty hours and having my general manager being fired. I was also rocked into finding out that I was not getting the promotion I thought I was geting and that I deserve. It was super hard for me to digest, but I have since gotten over it and know it was for the best.



February meant sadness for our family as we lost my grandmother's only sister. She was a great person and we all miss her smiling face. February also brought talk of Mike's mother moving back to Idaho. She wasn't having a good time in Arizona and needed to get out. We made some plans to get her in March and that's what we did!



The first weekend in March we piled into a car a drove to Las Vegas the first day. I drove the entire way and by the time we got there it was 9pm and I was exhausted, not to mention all the boys were deathly sick. We would stop at stores and they would take turns buying tissues, cough drops, and nyquil. It was sad really because I wanted to go play!! Day two we drove to Phoenix, much shorter. We hung out for a couple days then packed a Uhaul and began our trek back. Blah.

April brought SUGARCULT! My favorite show EVER! It was such a super great time! Abe and Owen and Lindsay came to the show...AMAZING!! I did get my elbow bit by a stranger though...kind of odd. Kendra and I also drove to Boise to get Cassaundra and bring her back to Pocatello with us! She has been back ever since and I love it!!

May was fairly uneventful...I think. I had a root canal and worked a lot because my GM was out of town a lot.

Kendra moved out of our crazy house in June which was a really hard day for me. It was sad to see her go and was horribly jealous inside. I went and watched the Classic Crime perform at a small venue here in Poky and was amazed as I always am when I watch them. They are awesome boys and I love how down-to-earth they are.

July was stressful for me. I was having lots of internal turmoil with seeing eye to eye with my new manager, but we got over it and we are better now. July was just one big ball of stress for me. Employee evaluations, thinking of going back to school, and financial woes.

August was better for me. Mike and I went on an overnight campout and the relaxation was amazing. It was super warm outside and things were great!!

Shinedown came to Pocatello in September and I proudly say that they are my new favortie live show. They impressed us all so much and put on an amzing show. I would love to see them again.

I made Halloween cupcakes in October and found out that there were a million prego people that I know. I stopped drinking tap water.

November was a crap month for the most part. Our cat, Fat Cat, was put down because he was sick from a spider bite infection. The happy parts were Mike's birthday, Alycia and Derek becoming our new besties, and going home for Thanksgiving.

December went too fast. I don't even know what I did. Mike and I went to my family party the first weekend. I dreaded Christmas because I went to my parent's house empty handed. I turned 24!